Why do I still keep this blog anyway? It's not like I actually write anything of importance here. Lately, the only thing I could talk about in here is my how my studies are going. Which sucks because this blog makes it appear like I don't have a social life.

Which, come to think of it, is actually true.

Beyond the people in my org, I haven't the chance to meet new people and do stuff with them. The last movie I've seen is Transformers (pretty pathetic, I know). I can't remember when I've last seen my UPM and highschool friends. Right now, everything in my life revolves around POLITICA and my studies.

I am leading a very boring life.

I'm reading my earlier entries, and they all suck. It seriously makes me want to delete this blog. But I'm keeping it for the sake of all the memories I've made.

So. This blog is going on a very long hiatus. I'm starting over again with a new blog, where I could express myself better, and serve as a reminder to me that there is more to life than my studies.

Nakakatawa. To pass the time while I'm procrastinating on the second draft of my thesis, I scanned some of the documents I have in this laptop. As it turns out, the journal section has this section for my poems. Most of them are uber-lousy and uncreative. But this one stood out the most- not because it's good or anything, but because of what I was thinking when I was writing it. Lollers.

YOU

You’re unlike anyone I’ve ever met

You’ve been waiting to hear that from me, I bet.

Yes, you’re unlike anyone I’ve ever met

‘Cause you’re as fake as anyone could get.

You like to say you have it all

You got the brains, you make guys fall.

When you believe in something, you stand tall.

But when I look closer, well, you’re not like that at all.

You’re not really smart

I could haul all the tests you’ve failed in a cart

You’re not beautiful; you’ve conquered no heart

Unless we define beauty as an evil witch with a wart

I'll end it here because the next verses are much more... informative. Haha. =p

I uber love my laptop. =) I'm in the main library right now, and am making the most out of wireless connection here. It's sad though that I have to go here everytime I want to access the Internet. I could also go to the School of Econ or the EEE building, but they're too far away. This is the nearest one to Palma Hall. Why doesn't Palma have wireless connection anyway? It probably has the most number of students in the entire university, and with the TOFI (Tuition and Other Fees Increase), most PH students already have laptops, and cars, and big houses, and swimming pools in their backyards... But I digress. The entire university SHOULD have wireless connection. And electricity should be be free to everyone. And rooms should be available even without reservation fees. But I digress again.

Haha.

Anyway. I'm here right now, supposedly making the second draft for my thesis. But I keep getting distracted by FF.net. And yahoo games. Haha. Some sites are forbidden by the proxy server, but I guess it's okay, since at the rate I'm going, and with more distractions, I'd never be able to finish this on time.

I wonder how I did on the first draft. I am expecting a grade of 70+, since it's only the first draft after all. Ah! But no. I keep forgetting that I only passed a 120-page output, while many of my classmates passed papers exceeding 200 pages. I seriously suck at PS199. So obviously I should lower my grade expectation- probably somewhere between 60 and 70. Gaah. So much for my dreams of becoming a college scholar again.

But there's still hope. I can do this. Go me. =(

The final module (budget proposal) for my thesis will be submitted on Thursday. After that, i'd only worry about the first draft (which is gonna be a walk in the park, since I already have eight modules to guide me), and the final exams which is going to 12 hours long. I'm actually pretty excited about it because of there's going to be a buffet, and it's pretty much a do-whatever-you-want-as-long-as-you-submit-something-in-the-end exam. Exciting!

I keep getting mediocre grades on my modules, but I have very high expectations for both Module 6 and 7, because I worked on them so hard. Especially Module 7. I actually drank coffee just to finish it on time. The result: 31 pages. When some of my classmates averaged at 20+. Oh yeah.

I failed my Bio1 exams, but I got a very high grade on my Span10 exams. Well, I didn't exactly fail. But it was way lower than I expected. Still. I had three exams for that day. Did you really expect that I'd get equally high grades on all of them? I am NOT God. I still don't have the results of my Lingg130 exams, but I couldn't really care less. I had a great report, and that matters more.

The only subjects that I even have the faintest hope of getting a final grade higher than 2.0 are PS193 and PS186. Speaking of 186, I'm glad that the midterm exams were postponed till next Saturday. That would give me more time to study. Yey. I WILL GET a high grade. I will.

On the other hand, the only subject I'm not sure that I'd pass is Econ 190.1. Midterms are on Thursday and I don't even have a copy of the sample exams yet. This uber blows. I have to spend all of Wednesday cramming, and all of tomorrow asking Arianne to tutor me. Haha, I suck, I know. =p

Why does this post sound so mechanical and stilted? And why can't I seem to stop talking about my studies. Yet again, this post is about school work. Something is seriously wrong with my social life.

I'm really very happy right now. I didn't get kicked out of PS199. I even got a relatively high grade for Module 4. I also got my first "competently written" comment from Sir F. Thank God.

Hay. I am so relieved. Now, all I gotta do is keep this up, and work even harder. I can do this! I know I'm going to achieve all my goals for this semester.

I WILL GET a high grade on my Bio1 midterms. I WILL GET a high score on my Span 10 first exams. I will ROCK next week.

I can do this. Go me.